Identification of what matters

The great question which I have not been able to answer, despite my 30 years of research into the feminine soul, is "what does a woman want"?
- Sigmund Freud

Do we actually know what we’re worth? We should. Recognise it.

In a relaxed conversation with a friend over coffee…she asked me, what happened to me? Why have I changed so much? Why have I mellowed down? Why is it ok to live alone? Why is it ok to be without any real family and friends? Why is it ok to be without a man? What kind of man are you looking for? Don’t you get lonely? Why did you turn down the 2 men I tried to set you up with?

All these questions, over and over again by so many different people. Only because I’m young, single and maybe not too ugly. Please note, at 27, there is no such thing as arrogance in knowing what you want. I have lost the keenness to jump at opportunities as they come, to seize the moment even if it never comes again because I have the end in mind. I don’t truly believe in the twist of fate. And lust is just an illusion. Dancing with illusions is risky business. I might come across a tad bit cocky but after years of all sorts of association with men i know what I really want. If I don’t get it. That’s fine. If i do, i won't date them, I'll give myself away to that. So, let me elucidate.

I finally have answers. You don’t have to read between the lines…I’ll lay it out for you. I can explain. I cannot identify with simple men anymore. I don’t like men who just thread water. I need depth. I don’t want to just ‘settle’ because I don’t easily collapse. I need him to believe in the same things I believe in. It’s not about innocence and rawness in the man’s actions towards a lady in every way. It’s about his sense and intent. I want a man more than a boy. I want realism.

Today, I pay my own bills, I make sure the house is spick and span at all times, all on my own. I have no qualms being the soldier of the home. Besides you know, and in a non-money oriented way, what else can a man do for me that I can’t do for myself?

I cannot put this in my own words…so I shall quote.

"I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life. I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive, he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a help mate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself"

And that's all. And I applaud these men.

Then I told her, I reminded her….that it isn’t all about the outer shell, that electromagnetic pull or that gentleman aura..…other than….I don’t like sloppy and unfit men who cannot carry themselves well, only because you can do something about it.

I hope this is comprehensible my darlings.

Besides, I miss my sister and Suzie and my daddy.

Easter Happenings at St Kilda.

Charlie Charlie!!!...Look, your angels on the loose